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Tuesday, May 02, 2006 @10:14 PM

im freaking irritated and pissed and whatchamacallits
jst a step away frm shouting out the F word t that person
but i cant
cos doing it has dire consequences
i hope aft this i feel better alr
it always make me feel better aft letting it out
i hope it does its magic this time

so actually today was okayy
you knw normal fine typical yeah you get it
then i settled dwn t do tutorials and stuff like the typical mugger
so coach serene msged me t tell me she cannot train on mon wed and fri alr
okayy
so i msged MRLIM our wonderfullest squash teacher
you will see why later
i guarantee
to see if it was possible t hv trainings on this sat.
which happens t be polling day
THAT I KNOW ITS A PUBLIC HOLIDAY
tht's why i asked la
pls u think im tht stupid

and guess what he replied
'my friend do you knw what day sat is, a public holiday'
okayy tht was so not subtle and uncalled for
uh so resigned to the fate of nt hving training for another wk was hard enough
i kinda look forward t trainings though really
i decided t get started on APGP
guess what, wonderful mrlim CALLED me and starting scolding me
i mean like f***
what did i do
im jst an ic, big deal
and he went on and on and on and ohmygosh u dnt knw hw much i felt like punching sth.
what really made me irritated was the fact that he said

'oh no matter hw hard you train you'll never win anything'
'why are you'll so eager to train'
'maybe i'll nt evn sign you'll for novice'
'you yr ones give me so much trouble'
'they train for 6yrs you train for 1, do you think you have chance?'

isnt that what sportsmen do
TRAIN
all the more we shld train
i mean like HELL TO YOU MISTER
the best thing is i hvnt evn seen him face t face
and all i can do is jst mutter
'yes, uh, okay, yes i understand, sorry'
WHAT THE FUCK PLS

and thn he tries t play mrniceguy here
oh see you dnt understand
thr's only ONE teacher in chg
i knw tht u ass
and i cant guarantee your safety if you go t yck
no insurance no safety
load of crap
pls like there are terrorists thr t kidnap us
stop bothering your seniors t train you
hello, no coach, no courts, now no seniors.
thanks ah thanks alot

as i was getting off the second conv on MY HANDPHONE with him
he smses me saying oh u can get wilson t train u guys tmr
hello, what was tht abt bothering seniors?
no thx, we're NOT having trng tmr alr thx t YOU
and the shelling was vry much NOT appreciated hwevr good u felt abt it
now i officially have NO mood to sit dwn and try t understand APGP and whatnots

i jst feel like crying
but i dont see the point in doing so
getting scolded over nothing
now THAT's something

sometimes i rly dont knw if im handling stuff right
i knw that HE is always watching out for me
but sometimes i feel damn lousy
like now

someone pls brighten my day, be my guiding light, be my hero
eternally grateful


do i feel better now?
i rly hope so





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