sighsighsigh
why can't i go to sentosa. damn it! imagine all the others having fun and laughing in the sun..only surrrounded by the lapping waves and the salty scent of the sea. hai..it really sucks being cooped up at home. but i guess i completed half of the 4 english newspaper article reports. reporting on the recent crazy horse cabaret shows and accepting ex-cons back into society. quite cool articles eh. esp. the first one. hhahha.lots to say and to express my views..love english. why can't chinese be as freaking easy as english. damn. and there's a 4shang hcl test on the first wk of school. just like icing on top of the cake. man! only half a year left to mugg at chinese..then..byee* chinese. i wont miss ya. till then. sobsobsob.

okay get this my grandma is stuck somewhere on the island of singapore and my parents are trying to find her..first reaction: 'whaaat, i mean how can someone get lost in singapore. cos its too small!!! like the ex pres of m'sia said..'put a car into fourth gear and drive, in no time you'll find yourself in the sea' what a meanie. ya anyway, there was some miscommunication between my uncle and mum so end up now doing a wild goose chase. well done people..adults, really! lost? just hop into a cab and take it straight home..wheee. but grandma cant speak english. hmph. what about that. so, hopefully she can be found quickly and come home..hhahahah what a hilarious incident.

i guess i prolly wont have time to update abt the outcome of the incident cos we'll go out for dinner maybe. hhaah i hope.

only two days till i get my new specs... so cannot wait.
patience is indeed a virtue.
[that i don't and will never have]

mood//tired, satisfied, overzealous
i know, no link right. whatever. its my lyfe*
so many things to do, so little time. now i finally know the meaning of that. got down to starting my holiday homework. hmm realised nowadays my entries are mainly filled with homework this and mugging that. sian right. ok no more talk about boring and mindboggling revision fo the o's alr.

did so many things today.went back to school to hand in my lit homework and jingru's cos nobody else handed in or rather no one else emailed theirs to me. suppoesed to help sihan buy the geog book by marianne chong but the bookshop was closed. argh* aunty said she was opened until 2pm lor..walau waste my time. btw sorry sihan. no book for you on wednesday..you can have the $20 back though..haha. then went to eat lunch at old airport road. so irritating. so many stalls closed. settled for some curry rice which turned out to be surprisingly nice and yummy.. haha so much for a hot and stuffy hawker centre with some delusional and crazy old man croaking vulgarities at anyone who passes.

ltr went to the optician to check my glasses cos the skl nurse gave me some dumb letter. okay so my eyesight worsened. thanks to many hours at the computer. blogging? maybe. hahaha. went up by 50 degrees. again. sad. so now it stands at 375 for both eyes. decided to make new specs. got too tired of the old ones. besides i already had it for like what. 3 years? ya think so. guess what my new specs are. frameless!!!! serious im not kidding. nv tried it before so since im not playing tabletennis anymore might as well. since according to my mum im not old enough for contacts. what can i say. i wonder when's old enough. maybe 55 years old. just kidding. so the specs are coming on thursday and i can hardly wait. ahhhh**. then went home feeling all elated and happy. God knows why too. maybe cos of the specs. haha retail therapy.xD

supposed to go for cell grp outing tomorrow. but once again, i cannot go. sorry guys. you'll will just have to go without me. imagine all the stuff i'll be missing out on and the crazy sleepover which ppl will most prolly not sleep. hmph. why does it always have to be meeeee. yah so im excited over grandma's coming to singapore tomorrow. and mum's attempt at making dumplings. she also want me to stay home and study. oh tell me about it. haiiiiii.. [sighs very loudly] all the sand sea and sun at sentosa and i'll be stuck at home reading all about electrolysis or genetic engineering for that matter. maybe it is a blessing in disguise that i will not get sunburnt and look like a red peeling snake for the next few days. a small price to pay for the fun in the sun. okay. who am i kidding. i want to go.i am being a freaking sour grape here. but i can't go. that's the bottomline. coming to think of it. i have not officially attended a full cell outing including the sleepover before and always have to leave because of some reason or another. hmm, i wonder why.

so people, keep me in your thoughts when y'all are having fun and sorry i couldnt go although this was planned like eons ago.. ya. so i guess that's it for today.
rather eventful right. so im looking forward to tomorrow and takes it as it comes.
maybe it is indeed a blessing in disguise.
God works in his own marvellous and mysterious ways that i can never fathom.
have fun~

love my new blogskin..just sooooo cute. hmph.ok, been a rubbishy morning..woke up feeling all grumpy and still tired. came back so late ytd. i swear this is the last year that im going to watch any stupid co concert alr. dont even know why i bother. oh well. abt church yesterday. great as usual but had to leave early cos of the concert. again. ate pastamania. omg love the ham and mushroom baked rice. yumm..but the rest of the night was crap.

anyway, today. not much better too. did maths. realised how lousy and out of practice i was. oh man, cannot even do simple inverse functions and completing the square. hm, i wonder what was i doing the whole of last year. did up a rough timetable for revision. dunno whether it'll work not.

ltr got music lessons. what a bore. i feel like quitting but it seems kind of a waste after all i;ve already learnt for like what..7 years. next year taking grd8 exam but it sucks to practice. esp when i dont get any fufilment from it. mum'll prolly kill me..and my tchr's gonna kill me too cos i havent practiced for like donkey years. hell.

^_peace*
'may the peace of God transcend all understanding and guard our hearts in Christ Jesus'

heyy..finally changed the skin. blogskin that is. nice right..hahaa better than the old one. so many people have. and it has a white background..so can use more nice colors.. hmph. the holidays has officially started but the mountain of homework is still impending. for now. its just chill out time first then...u know what. feeling kinda blissfully happy now. although i know this feeling wont last very long.

church later. looking forward to it
concert after that.
life rocks*
-for now-

'nothing that is so is so' as quoted from feste in 12th night, just found out that the teachers pile homework on us like its free like that. hmph. esp lit man. although i like lit. ya la also no need to tk advtg mah. mrs vora give like free one lo.. abt 12 essay qns ya..but thank goodness its grp work. otherwise..hmph.. dunno la. ppl i my grp u better volunteer to do kayz. dont just sit and qiao jiao then put ur name at the back..hahah but i know u'll are nice cooperative ppl. anyway its for our own good..hahah sounds so cliche.

sitting here zoning in front of the comp. screen
nth much going on
trying to get smth i know i can never get
but still trying..i wont give up until i get it..
till then..hahahahahhahh
tmr's interclass soccer. just wish that the sky dont play tricks on us again
let it shine
god help us
i wanna play..
*correction_ i wanna win.
right now competing with time.
cos mum's gna be back any moment
havent done jian bao
loh quee yah's gonna kill me for certain.
and maybe tan jen fee.
help help help
looking forward to june..god know's why
sometimes i wonder.
God are you really there.
i need you.. right here right now.
sometimes i feel as though u are so farr away but other times you are so nearr.
i need a new start. a new beginning.
something somewhere no one knows me
only you
life's so fragile. you sent me a warning. so close to heart.
you'll always be there for me ya
amen*

bahhh-
feeling//undecided
been home the whole freaking day. trying to.., hmm lets see what i was trying to do???
study? yeah that's it study or rather TRYING to study. made a list of things to do and so far only finished 3 measly things the whole day. woke up early. lazed arnd.went for lunch. felt crappy.
went to buy a compass that cld extend radius 15 cm and guess what the sales assistant gave me. the North South East West compass. wth. then she was like ' isnt this a compass' walau. finally i found the damn thing myself hmphs. really, sales assistants huh. but the sad thing is the compass looks to damn freaking fake. like those plasticky kiddo thingys. like gonna break any moment. but still it has to do. for now.

slept for 2 hours in the aftnoon. mum's nt home for the whole day and bro's finished with midyrs. me, hai. only the o's..parents going out for cell ltr. dunno whether shld watch tv or jst rott with my books.

din have church today. no music lesson tmr. feel so crapped without church. thanks ah c3 retreat. anyways. long weekend coming or rather..whatever. no chem extra lessons on monday wheeeeee*..but sometimes it can be qt funny when miss tan is nasty and cynical. hmms...actually qt interesting. watever.

-the above mentioned thoughts are totally random and incoherent at times.too bad. jst popped off the top of my head-
_off^
[Oooo love this color..shit brown..ha]

heyy..promised mummy tt i'll stay online for only 15 min but now's alr 20 min guess another 5 wont do any harm plus i'll keep its short.
was very excited in the morning cos today was finally interclass and the weather forecast said it will not rain. yupps* haha but nopess* it DID rain.dammit. actually got our hopes so so high that it wont rain cos the sun was high and dry thn boom the nxt moment baah. rain. and the 4k and 4g match was half way lorrr.hmph. they din get to play the 2nd half. actually our match was aupposed to be at 3.30pm bt thanks to 4b mep and aep students had ta move it back. grrr..then rain. arh. is it God's will to let it rain. cos we havnt trained enuff. wa the game alr postponed 3 times le leh. cant std it. first time in my life i dream abt soccer. hmph. dreamt tt we, 4h won 1-0 waahh..okay. hope and pray tt it will come true. go 4h. just do it. show the guys that we can do it..whahah.

ok enuff soccer
had gep funfair today. was ok. lots of food. cldnt resist the fries la..sad case.
tt's abt all
hope the nxt time i blog we wld have played and thrashed 4b and i'll be jubilant. haha
yess.. less than 5 min. no time le
time for loci..(x

this is the second entry of the day..actually i do not blog twice a day but this is some sort of an emergency. i know life's not fair. even god is not fair but he is definitely just.

peopl, if u wanna know why i am so freaking mad. i can tell you why.
ok, one of the reasons is that ppl keep hounding me with all the whys and so hows about lit..go ask miss ye urself man. settle ur own probs dont drag me down with u too. if u dont hand in or keep insisting that u handed in that's ur fault tt u din hand in with the class. not mine. not miss yee's or mrs vora's for that matter.

and secondly. MOJO or JOJO for that matter. BELONGS TO ME and so does the marks and stuff. not that im concerned with the marks or whatsoever. to me it does NOT make a diff. be it 71 or 74 its still an A2. but ur attitude sucks. who took care of the plant for THREE whole months? who watered it when it was in skl? who wrote every single word of the report? who brought the plant back and forth every single time mdm sim wanted to see it? ME ME ME ME ME..okay. what the hell.i tot this was a grp project and we were all supposed to learn from it. huh. watever happened to that. every time i bring it to skl. all i get is ' oh so how's it doing?' or maybe 'har. xinen u do alot leh..[pats me on the shoulder]' i mean what the hell. i know i cant make sun shine in ur house so that the plant can grow but can u at least make an effort. and to those that din evv water a single drop of water on the plant. back off man. if u even have the face to go ask mdm sim for the marks for the plant. think twice. or y dont u jus go tell her urself.
i hate it most when u do all the work and others get the credit for it..it sucks. i tell u. it is because of MY effort that the balsam is so nice and healthy. and if ur conscience even pricks u...watever. not just because u r my good friend then u can be like dat. a grp project involves evryone and the effort is shared. u dont even know anything abt the plant and have u even thought of giving me a hand in the report writing. NO.

so back off. the plant is mine and so is the report.
i hate sympathisers and shirkers of duty

actually this is abt saturday...din have time to blog so this is it la..very very busy lo..in the morning woke up did a bit of work..watched stupid tv programmes on kids central. cant believe im still watching kids central at 16 years of age.,.. oh man. but anyway. ya. its still fun and childish..very childish. then in the afternoon went to church. din go last week cos of super teen.realised how much i missed church even though its only one week that i din go. worship was great. had worship and intersession. my favorite..hahaa..then went to aunty ivy's house to have bbq. actually din know abt it but steffy and claudia told me. went there right after church but din stay long cos had eds night at 7.30pm. din even eat much dinner cos no time but ate alot alot alot of papadums..hmph. some indian food that claudia's dad made. damn nice ..haha. took cab to school..cos no time le. then arrived at abt 7pm. actually supposed to get mrs vora's telephone no. frm the locker at 4h but the corridors so so so dark and i abit lazy so jst ask sihan..haha anyway, ong jing ru, u still owe me one..hahaha...rmb ah.

okay backt ot the main thing. eds night was great..haha zhang fan are u listening..beyod my expectations anyway. and i cld actually understand the drama..haha the dance was good and nice too..okay. my vocabulary sounds so limited. watever..had a funfunfun time there.

15052005
daddy's birthday today. happy birthday dad. altho i dont think he will even read this..still..ya. had to wake up so early today then went for tuition at orchard..really sucks a lot alot man. cos it starts at 11am. so early la. then a maths is frm 11am to 1pm and phy is frm 1pm to 3pm but luckily onlg kc is fun and lame so its not so bad la..but the maths tchr. dunno what's his name totally sucks i mean i alr learnt integration lo. then he still talk dunno what crap. totally waste my time..aft tt supposed to have piano lessons but i postponed to another week. too tired liao lo. run here run there. walau. like siao ppl like dat. but ate quiche for lunch..i tell u its the bestest food on earth..so so nice. delifrance quiche. haha then also ate mc flurry cos the ice cream at the macs there is just great. its not like the normal macs icecream this one tastes different. highly recommended!!! went home.. sleeep.. im like sleep deprived la. then ate nice nice dinner that mom cooked cos its dad's birthday so hence the nice dinner. haha. then gave him pressie. marks & spencer's biscuits. so so so nice. actually felt like eating it myself. haaaha and the card was cute too.

have chinese test next week but still havent studied for anything. dont even know if its hcl or normal chinese. tell me someone? and i need the chinese list.. argh., and one more thing. jia you 4h gals for the bigggg match on tuesday if the weather holds up and this is mean but hope we're up against 4b..at least its better than 4f..hahaha..

mood//heck care & elated..
i know. no link right..
whatever
*let all glory be to God___

long time since i last blogged. abt one wk ago. hm din really feel like blogging these few days dunno why maybe cos of the numerous soccer practices that make me so so tired or the fact that i jst feel pissed..talk abt last wk. went for super teen again. was very very good man. altho i listened to it for the second time the effect is still good and it totally rocks and set my life into a newer and more refreshed perspective. some may perceive it to be boring and a waste of time but i feel that to get the best out of someting, one has to go with an open heart and mind and be receptive to changes and new ideas. altho it may not be tt easy but still...try at least. anyway. its over liao and back to hitting the books. had a few tests here and there. and ss presentation which im glad to day went well and it is finally over. at last. no more freaking presentations and powerpoints.

played soccer. actually din feel like playing for 4h cos not much chance of winning but then i tot y not man, give it a shot even if it is to malu myself for tt matter. then i realised tt i actually can kick the ball and shoot. wow. so i din forget my childhood kickabouts with my cousins and stuff like dat. altho my toe hurts like hell and my shirt stinks and my body aches from all the running and the shoe is all muddy and filled with grass. its fun and no regrets. so 4B or 4F here we come. haha. gonna give it my best shot on that day and hopefully score a few goals and win.. yippee. and to those who really want in their hearts to be on the first team. just say so la. be straightforward, come for the practices and do your best. dont just be afraid of the ball and shie away. if u wanna do it you can do it. its all in the mind. dont beat round the bush just to get ur point across and dont pull others down in the process of getting what you want. yuppsss..haha

ohya.gotta ssay something about my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE TEACHER..mr kiw sin wa. wa lau. he totally sucks and who do u think u r man, dhs policeman ah. jus cos my shirt was a teeny weeny bit untucked not like anyother neighbourhood skl ah beng and my socks were folded. SO? not like i steal or create a hell of a lot of trouble for you. im such a typical girl-next-door who just want to have my way of wearing the skl uniform. what the hell. ok kiwster caught me for the following 'offences'
-shirt not tucked in
-socks folded[btw he confiscated the socks]
-shoes too dirty
-skirt too short[what the hell, even mum LAUGHED at me. urgh]
lucky he so cock eye nv see tt i forgot to wear the skl badge tt day..dumb dumb man. and lucky he nv say my hair messy. otherwise...

okay, got it off my chest le..but still hate him. yucks. to think i still have to see him for cme every wednesday, eeyur
okay onto the next thg. omg i seem to have lots to say huh.
did the bio log all by my self again. damn irritated alr lo. and the plant bring her bring there all for the sake of mdm sim and the ppl in my grp..maybe only jingru understd my plight huh. hor jr.mrs vora also ask ME to organise the class into study grps for wk 9 and 10 so she can help us ..that's so nice right. hai. then organise le hor after much consideration adn deliberation finally put down the groupings.. this type of things cant possibly make every single individual happy one wad sure got some ppl have to make sacrifices and stuff like dat wad. and somemore. jst because u cant get into a grp u want dosent mean tt u 'fa xiao jie pi qi' and storm off cursing and swearing. it just life get it. so the groupings stay and i;ve handed the form in to mrs vora alr.

anyway, here's a special announcement. to all e lit students in 4h
miss yee lost her mark sheet so can u all bring all the stuff tt she's marked on monday and put it on my table cos she want to re-check the marks. thanks alot..rmb hor.very very important.

okay.,said enough. tk care peepz. dunno when i'll blog next so..
ciao
[btw kiw still sux and life can definitely go on without those who are so stubborn and want things their way. seeya]

ha.back to normal again..not crappy ar anythg,dun really feel anythg. all the tests for tis wk..passe..gone.watever. phy.hai.dunno maybe'll jus scrape thru. geog was okay..i guess.nt tt bad. at least got things to write.ya.tmr got superteen camp.9am to 9pm..wow..not cool and for three days..hmm..until sunday lehz 9pm and parents at cell grp again. so reaching home at 10pm and having full blast skl the next day..oh boy.what a wonderful weekend. just realised this whole wk has been a blur.and past me by without me realising.ok mon was holiday and tues was syf presentation.fun i guess. then wed and thurs test until one can realllly go crazy. three major tests in two measly days...i guess tt's dhs for you huh.bio phy and geog elect.nxt wk got chem metals and redox and emaths test for the whole damn syllabus..oh boy oh boy..god help me.

ohyah. another interesting??? thing tt i did during e week. went to the late dr wee kim wee's wake at the istana..dunno y i get chosen to go oso.cant say it was boring but neither fun. lucky got jingru otherwise i'll be seriously pissed and bored.waited abt one-half hour in the sun. smelling of perspiration and dunno what in skl uni and tie..argh. lots of ppl. ok, lots is an understatement, masses of ppl, mostly skl students. cos evry skl haf to send abt 10 ppl there. my gosh. some skls even wear their blazers..whew..then finally got to get in aft serious security checking and blaaaa..waiting.the istana was great. ok call me 'sua ku' i've nv been to the istana b4 maybe when i was young but cant rmb at all. e istana even have golf course and stuff. huge and cool. but tt's not the point. aft so much waiting and sighing, finally got to really go in. not join another queue. the place was air-con-ed. thank god.the atmosphere was downright solemn. like evn pri skl kids also kno how to keep quiet. saw the coffin and his head for like 10sec then poof. [thank you its time to leave] okay wateva. then back into the sun.oh man. lucky the bus wasnt long and we soon got back. what an experience man. visiting the people's president. hmm..

skl stuff now.the first half of e day was crap except PE. omg im actually gonna play football as in real football. and our team is 'really good' [note the inverted commas] hah. ok a few actually can play but the rest is just a bunch of ball-fearing-hyper-screaming nerds. oh yah. i forgot. those hu think they can play damn freaking well when she runs like a ball picker and thinks she is a wonderful goalie. not to forget the unsightly BO..zhuang yuan almost fainted..here's the scenario, we win ONE match and we get a trophy.cool eh. now i know whats the meaning of 'so near yet so far' and to think that we're seeded. and for gossip sake. she got rammed by the ball twice. haha,once on the leg..and once on the chest..haha [oww] oops..did i mk it too obvious. anyway..hu's reading??? its my life and my comments.

bio lesson was damn damn funny. mdm sim so cute.cos sally and zy were talking abt dunno what then she suddenly say ok must chg their places. and guess what, she puts zy in isolation..haha in the middle of the walkway btwn our desks. to b exact. btwn mine and sihan's table..haha she was so so so malued..too bad kok jun nv see..muhhaha had alot of fun disturbing her while she was slping during chinese also. dun tink lqy cared tho. less of zy less noise anyway..hahaa..

feeling a whole lot better now tho. cos no more tests. for now and i;ve written all i wna say without my comp lagging or shutting dwn.prolly wont blog for these few days to come.
jst realised tt the things i've blogged not really in chronological order. hmph.hu cares.
hor

feeling=crap.
dont feel like blogging.not now.not ever.
no comments.
the world is revolving arnd without me.
whatever
i'll just drown myself in i dunno..studying?
i'll blog when i feel like it..
heck..
so distant
so lonely
so farrr away

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